Zen Flow : Day 0

It's Jelli from old timey PBA!

So Brian and I are like OMG time to get hardcore. And I think I might like to make this journal focus on how that goes. We've more or less been trying to kind of ease into a "good life" and as those kind of things usually go, it's not working very well. We always give in to temptations. Convince ourselves that it's ok, and that we'll do better the next day/week/year/life.

So we're saying goodbye to a lot of unnecessary things. The most of which will be food that we like. We're doing it Zen style and are planning to eat nothing but veggies, fruit and rice for the most part. We've also shut away all our kitchenware and are going to only use one bowl, plate, cup, etc. On top of that, we have a list of things we have to do, and are positively not allowed to do.

It all starts tomorrow, which is when we're also going out to look for our new jobs. I feel like the ultimate goal with this whole thing, or at least one of the ultimate goals, is to come to terms with the idea that we may end up working somewhere we more or less don't want to be for our lives, and coming to accept that. Not in the way of "Oh well, this is good enough." We'll always try to do what we want to do in life, him with his music and me with my art, but I feel like we'll never be content with ANYTHING if we can't learn to be content with the things we'd rather not deal with. Because life is filled with those things.

So this is me trying to go with the flow. Let's see how it turns out.